MY MEMORIES
Tuesday, August 14, 2007
Haha! Damn it! Sometimes things in this world are just so funny! XD well, like the sad thing that happened just recently... I don't know why some people just insists on details. what? There's such thing as a secret in this world, my dear..s.
Just like what I said, "it's a secret I can't tell." haha.. well, it was in Chinese, actually. I was talking to my Chinese tuition teacher at that point of time. I was rather shocked when she suddenly said that I am not Jay Zhou. -_______- took me a while to figure out wad the hell she was talking about! After all, I see no connection between them! Then, I realised that she was referring to the new movie and song? HAHA! -_- wadeva.
Aduh.. I seriously don't wanna think about it right now... But I don't know. It just lingers in my mind. I'm able to get rid of it for some time, but after that, it'll come back. I guess this is wad I'll call reality. It's really hard.. I almost lost my composure as well... I gotta stay strong! I don't know whether this is gonna be fast, I hope it will be... But if it ain't... I guess it'll be best for me to start planning, a serious plan.
All along I've not been studying, touching books and whatsoever. It didn't bother me. I'll pull through, I'd always thought. However, I gotta change these. Now. Just suddenly. I wonder how I'll do it. well, I'd always said "when there's a will, there's a way." And so... I gotta gather up my will, my strength, my power, my everything.
I've not been so selfish too... Maybe, just maybe, I shall learn how to be selfish. Just a teeeny tiny bit, it may do me good, who knows?
But to think about it again, I don't feel like turning into something selfish... I guess it's just not fair! There when I'm up, and gone when everything's down... Since this is the case, I'll just have to solve it myself, again, I guess. By studying? If studies help in forgetting, then it may just be the real solution instead of being selfish. =] Sigh...
I'm not sure about what's gonna happen. I'll just pray for the best, work for the best and look forward for the.. Best results, if possible. Of course, as long as I'm able to hold it back, it doesn't have to fall. May my face be wet not and salted not as well.
To everyone: I'm sorry. To everyone: ..Thank you. To everyone: Please.
It hurts too.
FINALLY,
I'm vegetarian, yes, I am. And Indonesia's National Day is coming!! So is Teachers' Day!!! ^o^ wwwwwhhee!! Can't waitt!! =D heee!!
But I wonder if you were there... Or will be there.
-我不能说的秘密-
-A Secret I Can't Tell-
``engraved at ; 11:00 PM
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Monday, August 06, 2007
ok, I have a post to be posted actually but I don't really have much time now.. Sigh. Many things, again, have been happening to me. I'm gonna make this short... And these are the things I gotta say.
Sigh is the only word that has been coming out of my mouth.
How? Is the question that has been in my mind.
Please, I plead.
Sad I do feel. Angry - no more. Confusion in the air.
I just don't know what's right.
Something tells me that this may not be good.
But help may come and save we may be.
Hope's been searched high and low.
A moment it's in our hands and another it's lost.
Things has been going on this way.
I just don't know why.
Not that I'm weak and it's not that I'm strong.
It's just that... Sometimes, the ones we need are just not there.
We tried to voice out but it turned to deaf ears,
And the ones hearing are not helping.
Sometimes, they make it worse and till the end,
It just hurt.
Tolerance I've given.
Understanding I need.
Time is insufficient.
Enlightenment I seek.
Thank god for everything so far.
Please do help us again.
And now I shall pray, and pray.
Hoping for a better day tomorrow.
Good night.
-Learn It And You're Forgiven.-
``engraved at ; 2:25 AM
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