MY MEMORIES
Sunday, July 22, 2007
ARRGGHH!! I was just feeling so empty just now for some goddam reason! And again, I dismissed it as a new chapter in my life. DAMN! I'm right! It IS the new chapter in my life, alright. A chapter with "Turning Back" or of such meaning as a title! DAMN IT!
was feeling so angry and turned off so much lately. After my damn long holiday in June, good things didn't happen much. Instead, the bad things started attacking me! wTF! I turned cold and it's time for me to unfreeze myself! Freak! Sheitness! Now everything is a whole lot of mess after the freezing process! Thank god I retrieved myself back just in time!
However, this I'm I guess it was nearly too late. Let's see... I forgot to bring back my shirt, calculator and pencilbox on Friday when Mrs Nathan, the president's wife, came to visit our school. Thank god, again, Cheryl, Alfred and the guys saw them! Phew! But other than those, I lost many more things! First and foremost, my feelings. Then, my Chinese electronic dictionary! CAN YOU BELIEVE IT?! This is like a total commit suicide!! And my tieS! YES, with an S! Arrgghh I can't believe this! All those frozen feelings that I had made me neglect almost everything!
Seriously speaking, that hell DAMNED guy is so goddam lucky to not have met me a few days ago! If he had, I wonder what's gonna happen next! Freak!!! ARGGHH! Right now, I really thank god for helping me out. well, thank you sooo very very much Miranda and Jessica =]] You guys are my live savors! Sent right on time when I'm about to fall into pieces! Phew!
Ahh.. And of course, my other friends too. I'm not forgetting you guys at all =] thnx ya, Nu. For... Being online :P huahuaa! And Jenny!! I'm so sorry.. I didn't mean to make you go all the way to Orchard Road for nothing at all or something like that... It's because I was with my father's friend the other day, a guest in short. Soo.. Ya...
Not to mention that whenever my dad is here, he'll always fume me up! Adding oil to the, already big, fire. DAMN! It's not that I'm talking behind his back or something. It's just that, we tried talking to him before. Tried to knock some sense into him, BUT NO! He has to deny and had to retaliate! Had to runaway from the sad fact! And stay in his own fantasy! DAMN!
Not mentioning the type of happenings in school too! I'm not the only sad soul there, of course. I have a friend who have been wrongly... Left behind as well. For god's sake! Don't leave people behind! Do you know just how painful it feels to be left behind? Literally and illiberally! Sigh...
And now.. I just gotta say that I'm rather tired for a day already. =] Hope tomorrow will be a better day! Sigh.. I'm sooo so so SORRY for everything that I've done. To whoever I've offended or wadever. Oh ya! Had an issue in school too. wonder what's gonna be the.. Verdict XD
-Beautiful Liar Arse.-
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Wednesday, July 18, 2007
Friday, June 29, 2007 @app. 12:37AM
well, I've been reprimanded a few times before. They're regarding the same things.. About me... And what I do. what my sisters and cousins tell me do make a lot of sense and I do know that I'm rather... "stupid", in a way. Helping is good, but getting yourself too involve is not good, as it's often said.
However, even with the knowledge of this fact, it didn't stop me from helping and well yeah... I guess I'm "matured too fast". It's really annoying! I mean, it's great, but annoying too! Some people do envy such a responsible attitude, but it gets onto the nerves of others too.
I do wish that everyone will like me but it's impossible too. Somebody is bound to dislike/hate me out there and I guess that's just how the world goes around. There are some things that I can get away from but I chose to stay around and get my butt in there. At the end of the day, it's again, my fault. Mine and mine again.
I envy those people who seldom met problems. They're so.. Carefree! To the point that they even thought small matter are big matters, and BIG matter are SMALL matters. It's all upside-down! Okay, fine. I don't really envy them THAT much. It's just a certain part of me who longed for a moment to rest. =]
Alright, that's it for now! Good night.
-Being involved is good, being too involved is not.-
well, it has been a few days since the last time I updated ya.. About 3 weeks, actually. wow! 3 weeks only!! And so many things have happened!
Of course, I'm down right tired! First of all, we had the birthday party!!! Yeahh!! It was ok ^^ Hehe~ Thank god it wasnt planned fully! Thank god!! At least I'm happy enough to be able to save my friend's arse even though it was only a lil tiny help ^^ teehee! Haiz.. Even though the person herself does not realise it =/ Haha! I'm such a person-behind-the-curtains xD
Haiz.. Sometimes, I really don't get it. Humans can go really quite far.. For vanity. No wonder it's one of the deadly sins! Anyway, Monji, Meong and Tepot came back to SG too. Around the 10th.. And I met some of their friends. Haha! It was rather fun ^^ Oh! Not to mention, Moniq was here for a while too! And Tepot and me went to meet her and David by car!! XD AHAHA! Yeah, that white Nissan car.
However, I think due to the fact that the guy (salesman) likes my sis, he changed the car to this black I don't know which was MUCH much cooler! Haha! Oh! And my father came right on time to enjoy the ride too xD huahuahua!! Ahh~
So, all and all, I met Anlin, the guys, Moniq, Poppa bear, David and Ci Cyn!! Oh! and her guy friend XD HAHAH!! So many people!! OH!! And Ci Finna!! Got the pictures from her at last!! ^o^ HUAHUAHAU
Now, If I'm going to narrate my days, this post will turn into a short novel. So, I shall skip on some of the days and everything may not fall chronologically. Apologies for that!
Anyways! Umm.. Let's see.. Everyone were so shocked at the party. Obviously, I appeared differently - not like my usual self. we went out to have some supper, too, at Spize. Apparently, some smart policemen actually almost caught us! XD HUAHAHHA! They stopped their patrol cars right in front of our table and refused to budge until a few minutes later. LOL!
Gosh.. Yes, I started hanging out with him again. And the sensation from the past came back again! - The sensation to get away from him. I dunno.. He just turns me off! For some reason -_- Sigh.. wonder why he even has any fan! Thank god I'm not one of them!! Phew!!
And after the party, Joel smsed me saying that we should see each other more often, with Jenny too, at the swimming pool. =] Especially with the unfortunate fact that he's gonna move out soon in September! Automatically, I accepted his invitation. Soon, it became almost a routine.. Haha! On the strike of 12 on the 7th of July2007, the three of us celebrated his birthday. It was definitely not grand. However, I can assure you that the two of us tried our best! Hehe! It's now a really sweet memory ya ^^
Hehe! Oh man! Shall stop thinking about it or I'll be smiling all the way till I sleep xD And and.. we went for the Dim Sum Dollies on the.. 12th was it? OR 11th. I was late! Gosh!! Really unexpected but that was because I fell asleep! I was really dead tired. Thank god, I still made it and the Dim Sum Dollies were really funny! I was afraid that it was going to be boring or something at first since it was going to be about Singapore's history. I was proved wrong! ^^
Ahh.. That night Joel and I went home together... I wonder who does that necklace belong to? He seemed so frantic searching for it when we were about to reach our house. Must have been really important to him. However, when I asked whether he wanna search for it back at the bus stop or something, he didn't want to. It was meant to be given to somebody, I presume.
And then the 13th came. It was Alfreda's birthday! wished her, of course. But we didn't manage to go out together. I think she went out with her gan-family or something. I went to QSS' concert anyway. More widely-known as "aesthetic night".
Got a free ticket from Harvest. And Amanda was there!! ^o^ whee!! Her friends are like so sweet man!! (although, as always, they have other motives behind their kindness, Haha! It's not so bad XD I'm really surrounded by populer people man!) And out of them all, I'm hanging out with LG still.
Then, on Saturday, I went out with Steffi, Anthony, Disa, her brother, Franky and that's about it. Oh, before meeting them, I met Amanda and her friends too. Ahh.. Franky brought along to of his friends too. Practically geniuses. Haha! And well, things just happen too ya ^^ May they be good or bad =]] Haha!
Ahh.. In school, I get to do some CSI stuff as well. Cool stuff ^^ And I was sort of over-loaded with projects. the English project, Band, History - Ms Ng wanted my group to do a poster, Geography and coming up, Home Econs.
Haiz.. I've gotten myself into lots of trouble too lately. Be it in school, outside school, with somebody, a nobody, myself, teachers and more. Some people's look towards me have definitely changed. For the worse, to most of them, I guess. what can I do? I am but a human who's defending himself in order to survive.
Oh! Something amazing happened too! I was "promoted" to become a recruit IC!! XDXD wah wah!! However, again, I wonder if I'll be able to go a good job in this. Please! Help me along! what's more, I wanna get into 3E1 next year!! I've gotten hold of the criterias. Science has got to be 75 and above while math has got to be 68 and above!! How am I going to get 68 an above if my days continue on like this?! I'm dead! I'm on the losing end, again!
I just hope that there's someone out there who's able to help me! Friends, thanks ya for thinking about me. Or tuition teachers!! ^^ However, I don't know who to ask for help from. =/
Hmm.. And this shall end my post for today. Many details are not in this post. However, I can't promise you that I'll write them down in the next post too. we shall just see how things go tomorrow ^^ Good night everyone!!
-Parsley, Sage, Rosemary and Thyme.-
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