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Saturday, June 02, 2007

Friday, 1 June 2007 @ app. 3AM

Lately, I've not been updating about my life.. Well, I will be soon, I guess. Time will make me write again ^^ although I may not right now.. Some things have just been happening and I only be writing a lot of a mess if I don't get over them first.

First of all, this is the first time I ever stayed back in Singapore this late. Late as in not being in Indonesia right on the last day of school. Yeah, I'm always in Indo early haha! (Of course, this excludes my Primay 6 year. That's a special year XD)

Secondly, lots of things occured especially when it is regarding matters of the heart. Be it in our worklife, lovelife, entertainment life or whatever... Even schedules! Gosh what a pain in the neck they can be, sometimes!Sometimes, it gets rather annoying too when somebody just... Oh, I don't know! I'll just not elaborate on it in this blog. No use elaborating on it anyway.

Hmm... I do miss my primary school friends. A lot. Nah, I'm not saying that the friends I met in the recents years aren't great or something. They're great too! Of course!! Teehee!! My friends are ALL great!! =D It's just that.. You know, sometimes when you think back about the past, you really want to have those times back... People say that it's because of regrets. So, maybe, I do have regrets. Or is it something else?? A sense of unsatisfaction with myself?? That must be the answer.. Haha! Oh, whatever... Thinking about the past too much is not good for health XD Teehee! Shall just look forward to the future and make the best out of everything else! =]] hehe

And um some people do know about my... Umm how should I put this.. Fear. It seems to get more real as each day pass and some people are just not helping. Well, of course, they think that they are helping but the truth is that they are not. It's not their fault, really. (Although some of them are REALLY in fault XD but there people are not important anyway =P) They wanted to help. Sigh.

Oh yeah, some time ago, a few words were mentioned to me. Now, these words are not just 'any-other-words'. They are actually words with meanings that may be as deep as the ocean and it is true that many of us know them well. However, they are still as confusing as ever...

Friends - Bad friend, good friend, just a friend and best friend. It's amazing that we, human beings, actually catogarize our friends into so many different catogaries. The above mentioned are just some examples. To some, friends are just "things". Pretty harsh, no? But to them best friends are precious. It's sweet, very. But as always, confusing, in a way or another. Especially with the saying which goes " An insincere and evil friend is more to be feared than a wild beast; a wild beast may wound your body, but an evil friend will wound your mind." So yeah, "friend" is a very frightening word indeed.

Ego and charisma - It's true that egoism boosts your charisma but referring ego=charisma, is wrong in my dictionary. To me, a person is not really successful if he/she does not have a certain level of ego. I think that ego should be referred as self-esteem. So yeah... Too much ego is not good but whatever it is, I have to say that I have quite a high level of pride which means that my level of ego is kinda high too, I guess. That doesn't mean that I'm hopelessly conceited or something. I do humble my too; I just don't eat the humble pie. If this is bothering anyone... I apologize. There is nothing much that I can do, really. Maybe I'll change in the future but for the time being, I'm happy with who I am ^^

Hmm hmm.. And I don't think there are any other words which struck me hard anymore. It's just that.. OH YES! There is! Principle(s)..I am sure that many of us live our days by principles. Examples: A man may pick fights with other people but not females or you may be a heavy drinker but will never allow yourself to get drunk. Now, principles are actually essential in our lives. After all, they determine what kind of a person we will become. Although, of course, some principles which we created for ourselves may need some touch-ups but I believe that most of them were created based on.. What we believe in! Sometimes we may even do things against our principles due to some factors in our lives. That is definitely inevitable. Hence, again, I'm very sorry, my friend. I guess liking me is not as simple as before now since some scars have been left behind ^^

Anyway, I went to Steffi's house today.. Haha! It was pretty fun ^^ Initially, we were at Cine. She was watching POTC 3 with her friends and I was at the Es Teler, eating roasted bread and drinking a glass of teh tarik. She also learnt that we are able to charge our handphone batteries from me XD TAHA! Went to settle my bill and off we went to her house. Met her kosmate, Jovita and her cousin(?) Ernest.. ko(?XD) Really friendly guys =D teehee! Gotta say that today is at last a really happy day of mine after quite some time now! ^^ Haha oh yeah, on our way back to Cine just now, met with ko Fandy and.. His friends. Don't think ko Erwin was there just now XD taha! Oh! I borrowed some comic books, Roller Coster Tycoon3 and A Series of Unfortunate Events (FINALLY!!! =D=D) from Steffi just now XD TAHAHHA!! =D Lovely days ahead of me!! Umm.. I hope! And I'm currently watching Princess Lulu =]] hehe Well, I realise that I've watched it before, actually XD haha I didn't watch a full series in the past, of course. So watching it again won't hurt!! Hope that she will end up with her brother!! x_X huikz!!

Hehe alright! That's it for now!! Haha! Oh yeah, speking of which.. I just updated about my day! LOL Which means that my days are already getting brighter, huh? *crosses fingers*

"The real test of friendship is: can you literally do nothing with the other person? Can you enjoy those moments of life that are utterly simple?"
- Eugene Kennedy

"If you are a person of great charisma, as Bergman is, people demand from him a lot of things which he probably doesn't have. That is a terribly frustrating situation."
- Max von Sydow

"Personality is essential. It is in every work of art. When someone walks on stage for a performance and has charisma, everyone is convinced that he has personality. I find that charisma is merely a form of showmanship. Movie stars usually have it. A politician has to have it."
- Lukas Foss

-Ego is good.-
Adapted from Thomas Leonard
Agreed. =]

Saturday, 2 June 2007 @ app. 2.50AM

Ahh another day passed and I collected my report book today... Was such a tiring day x_X after all, I didn't sleep. I only took a 2-hour nap but gee I wasn't THAT tired just now but well, I am right now. Just finished watching A series of Unfortunate Events by Lemony Snickets. It really is a nice movie. For those of you who has not watched it yet, do watch. It may contain too much fantasy to your liking, though, but overall I gotta say that's a good movie. The ending was really sweet. The movie concentrates on the value of a family and it really moved me. Cause it truly showed me that no matter how unfortunate you are, you are actually kinda fortunate already, in a way or another.

So, count your blessings folks! There's really no use moaning all your life over something that may not belong to you and may NEVER come into your life =] Instead, innovate and live a happy life! ^^ That's it for now.. I really gotta sleep x_X nights everyone!

-There must be something.-

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