MY MEMORIES
Monday, April 09, 2007
You know what? What you wish for may really come true sometimes. Just like my wish yesterday. However, before your wish comes true, you'll have to pay a price. Be it cheap, light, expensive or heavy. I wished that today would be a better day, didn't I? Guess what, it did, in a way. However, another heart-wrenching experience happened yesterday.
Fortunately, am not just any other girl you meet on the street or in your neighbourhood. So, I was able to withstand the pain I had to go through. Imagine this...
One night, after accompanying your mum, finishing your work as you've promised and called home informing on where you were - cuz apparently, you were late for your curfew thanks to the late-coming bus, everything seemed fine. Your dad was still happy and laughing, sort of. He talked to you nicely and trusted your words, well he SHOULD believe your words. After all, you didn't lie. Then things started to turn ugly again.
Out of the blue, your dad starting shouting at you while you were using the computer. Now, if that's not bad enough, he started threatening you. Cursing you that you would not do well in wadeva and saying that you would have a tight slap across your face or wadeva. How would you feel? Sad, of course.
Things didn't just yet. He had to repeat his words over and over again and insists that you had to sleep in the same room with him. And late at night, in your not-so-good mood state, you had to hear his horrible snores. Oh gosh! Why is this hell falling onto me? You must be thinking of that, aren't you? Well, or maybe How unlucky of me! or whatever it may be, I'm sure it's not a good situation anyway. So, yeah. You can come back to reality now.
I do not know how you guys will react to this. Some may rebel. Some play stupid, some break down OR chose to ignore. For me, I ignored them. I think that they should be really thankful to me. I did not rebel, neither did I do anything that would make them lose their faces!
Sometimes, I wonder. Do our parents ever care about our feelings, AT ALL?! I mean, the way they treat us could be even WORSE than the way they treat a DOG! Sheitness!
Anyway, today, I had a meeting with the lower-sec chairpeople and the DMs. We had to bring our books on the days assigned to us. Well, another task to take on, another experience to be gained. I was told to bring all my books of the day every Monday and Thursday. Which means that I will have to reach school at 7 AM on those two days. I wonder how long this project will last =/ I mean, it can really be tiring.. Especially with SYF around the corner!!! x_X
Then, we had band. Sir was really pissed off with us yesterday. I'm sorry! It's partly my fault.. I'm still unable to play some parts.. And I would say that I didn't do well today. I did practice a lot just now during sectionals. Until the point when I had a headache x_x shucks!! Haizz... No matter what, I'm still gonna work hard for it! Gold!!! I'm working towards you! I'm even thinking of bringing back my instrument on one of these days.. We only have 3 practices left!! Well, about 5 including the sectionals.. And there'll be NO MORE!! I'm so nervous!!!
Today, we were told about some of the schools' results.. OMG!! Some of them were really SHOCKING!! We didn't expect them to get THOSE results!! Well, gotta work hard!! C'mon!!! I hope that we will do ourselves proud. Our sirs, teachers and school, too, of course!! BAND!!! FIGHTING!!! Tomorrow is Izzati's turn!!! IZZAT!!! YOU CAN DO IT!!!! Don't have butter fingers ya!! (although I have the feeling that I myself will have..) and HAVE CONFIDENCE IN YOURSELF!! You've been a really great musician!! WAY BETTER THAN ME!! In fact, I ain't no musician at all!!!
Haiz.. Alright then! Shall stop here. EVERYONE!!! FIGHTING!!!!!!
-If You Don't Help Yourself, Nobody Else can.-
``engraved at ; 9:31 PM
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